Same Girl

I wondering am i can be the same peson if i grew up and couldn't back into my childhish thinks. Just like they said to me, i am lucky because still teeneger. I just want to grow up as fast as i can not only in my age but also in my brain. I now i am not smart and genius and fabulous, because i am not. I love forest , the rain smell is very make me feel like human, my friends make me remember i was a social creature. Just need my classic music in my phone to charge my power and carbohidrat. And i wondering are nodame cantabile dvd is still in store.The best dude in the world for me is already die, he was very care with me but now he was really gone.
.i m just very tired with all thu stuff , beeing a teenege is the worst. I am wrong to thing evry scene of my life will be ''happily ever after''. Bulshit. Damn i trust those people. I am so stupid!.

I will be waiting for the friend who i never meet....
The river of my life will show me